Miss you loads (II)

Had one of those weird dreams today,
the ones that don't seem to make any sense at all,
like you going up the escalator that was going down,
only that the escalator was actually the check-out line in some weird store
and then the eggs the old man wanted to pay for got broken
and then when I tried going after you, the curtains closed
and you were looking down at me from the gallery (the gallery?!)
and you winked, with that mischievous glint in your eyes
and I could almost hear you say it,
Awon t'emi, bawo ni oh?!
and I thought wish I'd been smarter!
and then there was the blasted alarm waking me up,
and as I dragged myself out of bed,
I realised it didn't hurt at all, not this morning!
All I felt was that sparkle in your eyes
and for once, maybe the for the first time ever,
I could think of you without feeling overwhelmed with the pain,
for the first time, I remembered just how it used to be,
felt it, lived it, tasted it,
and maybe I still don't have all the answers,
I know that I'll deal with it,
I'll stop the pain ruining the beautiful memories,
I'll be able to think of you without becoming a blubbering, snot-slurping mess,
I'll remember how so full of life you always were,
I'll see the pretty girl and not the box,
I'll see you making cheeky faces at me from that mysterious gallery and not the box being lowered into the ground,
I'll stop living in this hole that can't hold you in,
I'll be able to stop wondering why and how I got the chance you deserved....